January 6, 2004

How is it 2004? I feel like the New Years Millenium parties were just yesterday! (Ok, maybe more like last month. If they were yesterday, I assure you I would be lying prone on my couch, eyes covered in soothing gelled eye-mask to make the cacophonic pounding in my head abate.) Point is, how can it actually be 2004, and more importantly, why isn’t anyone else as shocked as I am?

No, I’m not a latter-day Rip Van Winkle, not a coma-victim waking up from a long rest. I’ve lived all 365 x 3 + 6 days since December 31, 1999, and while I hate to use trite metaphors (simply because I often mix them up and then feel like a dumbass when someone corrects me in their comments), I’m pretty comfortable saying that time DOES fly.

Don’t worry, this isn’t going to be one of those whiny, “woe-is-me”-esque posts where I lament my single-dom, wonder where the hell my life is going, and basically whine about me not yet getting a nobel prize for writing my Great American novel that I’ve not yet started. I’ll save that for another day. In fact, I’m not yet sure where this post is going as I sit here and ponder my existence in the early days of 2004, looking out the window on a brisk, yet sunny Atlanta morning and finding hope & excitement in what may lie ahead. It’s the whole resolution-thing, where people once and for all declare to themselves and to anyone else who will listen that THIS YEAR they WILL lose 20 lbs, they WILL quit smoking, they WILL stop spending money on ridiculous things like AG Jeans (which, in my mind, are SO not ridiculous. Have you seen my ass in them lately? CUTE!). But yes, the tradition of New Years resolutions may be a good one, but I’m taking a ‘pass’ this year.

In prior years, I’ve made un-resolutions, resolving to NOT do certain behaviours and to enjoy life to the fullest. And while I’m sure I could do that again, sure that I could come up with some kitschy, funny little ditty on eating french fries and ice cream and laughing with my friends & whatnot, I’ve chosen to avoid the cliched resolutions (or un-resolutions which, let’s face it, are basically just resolutions themselves) and just go with the flow.

Aghast? Is Aubrey really taking off her type-A cloak and letting her hair down a bit, throwing caution to the proverbial wind? Yep, let it fly. I can no more will my life to go the way I’ve envisioned it than I can go back in time and decide to end a futile and failing relationship before it got bad.

Yep, this year I’m letting it all go. If I want to go find me a boyfriend, well, I’ll go do that. If I want to eat the entire homemade cake I made the other night (that wasn’t as good as I had hoped, actually), then hells bells, I’m on it. I’ve got a can-do, will-do attitude, so resolutions can just go right out the window, I’m taking life by the horns and riding it like the mechanical bull at Steeplechase.

Without that whole ‘broke my dress, flashed the crowd’ thing, of course…

6 thoughts on “January 6, 2004

  1. Unknown's avatar

    Aubrey your good times. I think you shouldn’t change anything with your life, this past year seemed as if decpite all the bad things you really really had an amazing year. So I agree with you, say bye-bye to the resolutions and hello to the good times again.

  2. hollismb's avatar

    Uh-oh. I’m sure you’re aware, but you just resolved not to make a resolution, which is, in fact, a resolution in itself. Much like the old ‘selfless good deed’ argument, once you think about it, some resolution immediately takes place, much like recognizing your good deed is inherently selfish. I too am very anti-resolution, but then again, now that I’ve mentioned it, I’ve somehow made one as well. Oopsie! So, I’ll simply take a page from the book of Bart Simpson and say, “I do what I feel like”.

  3. êddiê's avatar

    mmm.. homemade cake. the box kind i hope. now, when you make yours do you cut the top off the cake circle to make it flat? and do you do it when it’s warm?
    if so, that’s just the best part of the cake and it will make you forget it’s Y2K+4.

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