You know those girls that drop their girl friends the second they’re in a relationship? Or – worse even – bail on a girl to go out with some random guy?
I hate those girls. You know you do, too.
Only – get ready – I *AM* one of those girls, if my latest actions are any indicator. I did the unthinkable, to one of my closest friends, to boot! I picked the guy over her.
It wasn’t exactly that cut & dried, per se, but the outcome was that she felt like I chose a dude over her, and really, in situations like this, the outcome is only what matters. The truth of the matter is that I had wanted a night off from this week’s forthcoming insanity, so asked if we could not do our regular Tuesday dinner. She agreed, and I was relishing having a (rare) night with nothing to do. Then, enter cute boy, same cute boy I had an awesome dinner date with last night. We were planning the next time to see each other (me being allthemore excited for our next time to hang out 1:1 since I’m afraid my party is going to be pretty crazy and he won’t know anyone there) so alas, the only night I could was Tuesday.
Warning: Aubrey is entering asshole territory here.
So, alas, I made a bad friend decision. I should have probably just let him know that I didn’t have any free nights this week (even though I wanted to hang out with him again), taken Tuesday off to rest (which we KNOW is hard for me) but I didn’t. I planned our next date for Tuesday, my "night off" no longer. And in doing so, I’ve upset and hurt a friend and have firmly placed myself in "girl who drops girl friends for boys" territory, a no-man’s land where NOBODY ever wants to enter.
So while I’ve been apologizing profusely, and – to quote my friend – "acknowledging that you suck doesn’t make it any better" – I’m acknowledging it not to make myself feel better (as she asserts), but because I made a bad choice and by coming clean with my jackassness, it will remind me to never do it again.
Because I *hate* being "that girl" that we all hate, myself included. And nobody should spend their last 4 days of their 20’s in self-loathing.
Girls, let this be a lesson to you all, as it is to me. Ho’s before Bro’s.